choosing loneliness

My childhood was Pocked By Loneliness At five I quickly learned I was Alone Soon thereafter I learned Loneliness Not long after that I learned Sacrifice I learned that to Belong Required Sacrifice Sometimes of my body Almost always of my peace and My honesty I am among the Survivalist Chameleons I can blend, meld, …

walking into the glass wall of us

I’m a liar Because I won’t tell you how I really feel I’m a coward Because I won’t look you in the eyes I’m a bitch Because I withhold myself Even though you asked nicely And I’m mean Because I bait you and then escape And I’m cruel Because I want to punish you For …

flutterby

Butterflies today At the edge of my field of vision Fluttering and gone Tantalizing and gone Leaving me ever wondering What I’ve just missed

choosing differently

God is generous with Second chances I see you in him In his intensity and curiosity In his determination of what’s Right For me I see how my strength Intrigues him And incongruously makes him want to Fix me He’s just as Sure That I need his Guidance He’s just as sure That he Sees …

Well, What Do You Need Help With?

What I needed at that moment was a big, tight hug and a long, slow kiss. That wasn’t the answer he was looking for.

woman

It’s in the way the Sunlight Catches in her eyes In the quiet patience Of her hips The curl of her lip It’s in the grace and economy of her Movements Fluid and lyrical In catching the Falling Bolstering the Trembling Embracing the Without It’s the delicate flesh Revered Worshiped That can be made to …

if, then, else

If I had been a happy child If I had known unconditional love Would I have grown into a woman with A surging thirst of ambition? If I had believed my mother Anytime she nurtured me Instead of ever suspecting her motives Would I have come to love a simple life? If I had had …

On This Week’s Episode Of “My Mother Is Crazier Than Your Mother”…

  Not a Christmas Card. My long estranged mother, with whom I haven’t had a more meaningful exchange than the $20 bills she sends me for Christmas and my birthday, just sent me torn out pages of The Far Side cartoons. About cows. Cartoons about cows. She said they reminded her of my ex-boyfriend. My ex-boyfriend from …

a kernel of you

Can I have nugget of you? A kernel? I promise to treat it with the utmost Care I will build it a Velvet box and Keep it Warm And sheltered And loved I will hum to it And watch it sprout And protect it From the wind I will Nourish it and Prune it and …