if, then, else

  • If I had been a happy child
  • If I had known unconditional love
  • Would I have grown into a woman with
  • A surging thirst of ambition?
  • If I had believed my mother
  • Anytime she nurtured me
  • Instead of ever suspecting her motives
  • Would I have come to love a simple life?
  • If I had had brothers to look after me
  • If I had had friends or my father to seek solace in
  • Would I have grown so strong and
  • Independent?
  • If I hadn’t faced and walked away from
  • The option of suicide at eight years old
  • Would I have chosen it instead
  • After some flapping melodrama years later?

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  • If I had played dolls with little friends
  • If I had had play-dates and summer camps
  • Instead of wandering the forests and creeks like a wolf-child
  • Would I still have a transcendent imagination?
  • If parent figures hadn’t wafted in and out of my homes
  • If I hadn’t been drug to one sham wedding after another
  • Would I have had my starter marriage and divorce
  • Instead of insisting on one true love or nothing?
  • Who would I be
  • If I hadn’t faced what I’ve faced?
  • Would I like me as much?
  • Would I be as proud?
  • Would I want as badly
  • To touch the hearts around me?

 

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